What a difference 24 hours makes (referring to yesterday's blog post vs today's). I have insomnia. I can fall asleep but wake-up after a couple of hours. I'll stay awake for 2-3 hours and fall back to sleep about an hour before having to get up. I actually prefer the nights when I wake-up and... Continue Reading →
Dating after loss is weird. It's nothing like the dating I did during open marriage time and separation phase. Probably because I was still attached to my husband and didn't take it seriously. This "real" dating is just fucking weird. When I first made an effort to start dating, I went in it with a... Continue Reading →
After all the heartache I have experienced I can be thankful for one thing, I know what I am and am not willing to put up with. Through all the good and bad parts of my marriage, through all the dates I went on during my "open" marriage, separation, and dating after my husband's death,... Continue Reading →
Now that I am forced to date again, here is another list of personally observed red flags! Tries to get you to have sex with him in a coffee shop parking lot on a street bustling with nightlife. Texts, "Let's fuck," after 5 message exchanges. After he ends your "whatever it the fuck it was"... Continue Reading →
I have been romantically traumatized. I'll probably miss out on the next great love of my life because I won't believe him. I've written before about how my marriage wasn’t where or what I wanted it to be. I started this blog when we were separated. Now, that my husband is dead I feel like... Continue Reading →
A small but personally observed list of relationship and dating “red flags.” When a guy you’ve gone out with a handful of times starts sending you videos from Prager U.When a man says he’s “confused” about his feelings for you after spending months convincing you of those feelings. When the person you are dating brags... Continue Reading →
Before you get married ask your partner what their expectations are. In fact, point blank ask them, "Are you look for a partner or a parent?" If you are looking for different things, don't get married. If you have the expectation that marriage is a partnership and it ends up being a parent/adult-child relationship chances... Continue Reading →
I can't speak for all marriages, but I can say that mine is a four letter word. My husband and I are so different. Trying to hold a conversation with him about anything other than motorcycles is damn near impossible. In fact holding a conversation with him period is difficult as fuck. He listens to... Continue Reading →
I have lied. I have cheated, both in school and in relationships. I don't feel good about any of it. I cheated on a test in college. I cheated on my homework and classwork in high school. Not all the time. Honestly, I was usually the one that was cheated off of, but I did... Continue Reading →
About a month ago, I started making a list of things I like about myself. I stayed away from physical attributes and focused more on personality or other intrinsic aspects. The list originally had 12 items. I was pleasantly surprised there were that many. Since then, I have added two more. Due to having Major... Continue Reading →
Lost in Resolute Reverie 