I want out-of-your-mind love. I want love that shines brighter than the brightest stars. I want someone to love me so much that there are no questions or doubts, that they are my person. I don’t want to wonder, “Am I a consolation prize?” I want fire. I want passion. I want soul igniting love.
I want someone who thinks of me when they wake-up. I want someone who calls me just to hear my voice, even if they saw me earlier in the day, or even a few minutes ago. I want hours of conversation about trivial and important topics, alike. I want someone who wants to spend time with me because they can’t get enough of me. I don’t want to beg for attention.
I want someone who will text me funny memes when we are not together. I want someone who will take care of me when I am sick. I want someone who wants to be there for me when I am depressed. I want someone who takes me on adventures. I want someone who makes time for me no matter how busy they are. I want someone who wants to know everything there is to know about me. In spite of all my flaws, they still want me because they know that my flaws are part of me, and they love them, too.
I want someone who will hold me when I cry. I want to wake-up to next to someone, and the thought of getting out of bed is just too much to bear. We’d rather stay in bed entangled in each other. When the newness wears off the love doesn’t fade, it morphs into a deep love rooted in our souls. One where we know each other are safe. That we will never leave. That we are with each other because we want to be, in love, not obligation.
I want that movie love. That Noah and Allie love. The romantic comedy love. Love should be deep. It should build me up. A person that truly loves me strengthens me, and encourages me to be the best person I can be. They are my personal cheerleader. When I have real love I shouldn’t feel alone even if the person is sitting right there. Love should make me feel wanted and adored. I want someone who only has eyes for me. No doubts. Just knowing, know I am their person, not because I feel trapped, but because I want to be there. I want them.
I want love that is grand and beautiful. I want that, or nothing at all. I’d rather be alone.