I think about writing a lot. I think about all I want to say during the day, but when I actually have time to write my mind is blank. Or, it is so full I can’t focus on just one thing? Usually, it’s just blank, like right now. I am writing (typing) without any specific … More What About Your Friends?
This has been the fastest slowest winter ever. That may be a bit hyperbolic, but it sure as fuck feels like the last month flew by. How is it still only February? Where are my warm temperatures? Where is my sunshine? Where are the blooming trees and the greening grass? I legitimately, with a fiery … More FUCK. THE. WINTER.
Before you get married ask your partner what their expectations are. In fact, point blank ask them, “Are you look for a partner or a parent?” If you are looking for different things, don’t get married. If you have the expectation that marriage is a partnership and it ends up being a parent/adult-child relationship chances … More The Wife-Mom Quagmire
I have the mehs. Or, is a case of the mehs? Either way, I feel meh. Lately, I am 100% completely unmotivated to do anything. Okay, 100% may be a bit of hyperbole but nevertheless, I feel meh. I have been wandering around my house trying to focus my energies on something, but I just … More MEH
Depression isn’t an emotion. Depression does not equal sadness. Sadness is a fleeting emotion. When depression has really taken hold, I’m empty. I feel nothing. I’m a shell. I watch everything go by. I do the things I’m supposed to do, ones I’ve built a routine around, but I’m detached. It’s robotic. I do it … More Empty
I am currently sitting at my desk eating a piece of red velvet cake roll (store bought) and ice cream. Not because I am hungry but because it is Christmas. I am a Christmas glutton. I throw caution to the wind and eat until I feel sick to my stomach, have a massive ‘food baby,’ … More A Christmas Glutton
Anyway, I have felt the compulsion to create lately. Not only with the Cricut but with art and writing as well. I wrote a poem the other night. I felt compelled to write. It just came to me. It may have been the alcohol combined with a release of repressed emotions, but in any event … More MAKE ALL THE THINGS!
I go through phases of keeping of food log. I usually start one when I feel like my eating habits have gotten unruly. It’s a way to reign myself back in. I started my current food log back in May. I’d gone over a year without keeping a log. Due to COVID, like many folks, … More My Control Delusion
Yesterday, my youngest son and I were coming home from running errands just after the sun had set. As we were driving through our neighborhood, he commented on how cool and sparkly all the Christmas lights looked decorating our neighbor’s houses. This got me thinking about the late fall and winter time of year, or … More Holiday Inheritance