Anxious and Indecisive

I am indecisive.  It’s the anxiety.  I wasn’t always this way.  I used to make decisions.  I have lost confidence in my ability to make decisions.  I think access to the internet, and so many opinions and reviews, has made it difficult for me to make a decision.  I’ll see the high rating, and then I read the negative reviews.  It stresses me out.  My husband wants to take a trip somewhere.  He and I haven’t been anywhere in a good long while; just us.  We have looked at Mexico, Jamaica, Dominican Republic, Antigua, Aruba, Curacao, and the list goes on.  I would rather go somewhere relatively safe, so that I could go off resort, and actually explore the island.  What is the point of traveling to if I am just going to stay at some cookie cutter resort and never leave? I want to see a different culture.  I want to try the different food, hike, see things that I can’t see anywhere else.  I also don’t want to spend a lot of money.  I would describe myself as thrifty, and even if I have money, I have a hard time spending it.  Anxiety is a beast, and it is keeping me from living my life to the fullest.  It’s either depression or anxiety.  I am not even sure I know what normal feels like.

On another note, I only went a week without posting.  Progress!


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