I am indecisive. It’s the anxiety. I wasn’t always this way. I used to make decisions. I have lost confidence in my ability to make decisions. I think access to the internet, and so many opinions and reviews, has made it difficult for me to make a decision. I’ll see the high rating, and then I read the negative reviews. It stresses me out. My husband wants to take a trip somewhere. He and I haven’t been anywhere in a good long while; just us. We have looked at Mexico, Jamaica, Dominican Republic, Antigua, Aruba, Curacao, and the list goes on. I would rather go somewhere relatively safe, so that I could go off resort, and actually explore the island. What is the point of traveling to if I am just going to stay at some cookie cutter resort and never leave? I want to see a different culture. I want to try the different food, hike, see things that I can’t see anywhere else. I also don’t want to spend a lot of money. I would describe myself as thrifty, and even if I have money, I have a hard time spending it. Anxiety is a beast, and it is keeping me from living my life to the fullest. It’s either depression or anxiety. I am not even sure I know what normal feels like.
On another note, I only went a week without posting. Progress!